Since Laina was born I have struggled that I missed out on labor and that experience and with the idea that I will probably have to have a c-section every time now. I have felt like people thought I was giving up and just taking the easy route. Actually I have gotten that impression from people, not everyone. I think that’s part of why I felt like I wasn’t doing my part as a woman and a good mother. Because of societies view on child birth. If I would have had a choice things would have gone differently. I was talking to one of my friends the other day about just this very thing. She is pregnant as well and her birth plan is very different from mine, but she is still very understanding of my choices even before it came down to c-section. She sent me to someone’s blog to read what this woman wrote about c-sections and she put it in a better perspective for me. After reading it I feel better. I was being a good mother and woman. And it’s not the easy route. It definitely wasn’t easy for me to make that decision. I remember as they laid me back on the operating table and tied my arms down like on a cross I thought of Christ and his courage he had to lay his life down for me. And so I had to have so much courage to make that decision and I would do it again and again! Because I love my baby!
Here is the link to the blog.
http://avital.blogspot.com/2011/01/cesarean-courage.html?m=1
